GrooceChance – September 7, 2015
Everyone wants dream to become true. I’ve always wanted so.
I’ve desired to create a poetic hip-hop album that can be stuck to many people’s ears for a long time. It, however, has not been working well.
Almost all of my musician friends are no longer in the scene, rest few of them was trying not to give up, providing part-time music lessons.
There was a time that I was trying not to give up, doing whatever needed like my friends.
When I was 26 working on several hip-hop projects, I “finally” realized, others against my dream might think it’s “quite late” though, that I need money in order not to give up the music.
After that, I started working full-time outside of the hip-hop scene to make money. It was necessary to continue to be a musician, and 5 years later, I quitted it to be the musician.
Although I had not stopped producing during the full-time job, producing music required so much time, so that I faced huge limitation in time and my ability to multitask.
I didn’t earn lots of money, but it was enough to keep doing music for a couple of years. And I left my job. Jerry. K’s Resignation actually inspired me to do it.
It’s been 12 years that I’ve made of my mind to do the music. The difference between other rappers and me is that I don’t have any personal connection with famous musicians regardless of whether they are underground or not. Vintage Code, a beat maker, doesn’t have any neither.
I finally released this album after one and a half year I left my work.
I met VC, and he encouraged me to make my own album. I originally wanted to make EP, but I could picture that if he made the intro, outro, and skit, they would be great with his taste. There was no written contract or things: I asked, he pleasantly accepted. And he gave me one more track (the 3rd track.) I’ve thought about many titles for that track, and I wanted it to be “Literary Album,” but I gave up the idea because there was already similar thing in the market, Giri Boy’s Sensual Album.
‘I have a ..(INTRO)’
VC borrowed the historical speech “I have a dream” by Martin Luther King, Jr. for the speaker, which is my persona, to start his “story.” This clause is the center of the story.
‘1번 트랙‘ “Track 1”
The 2nd track’s title is ironically “1st track.” I never thought of other possible titles for this track, and that’s just it because this track is the nubmer 1 for me. Pursuing my dream only with guts is like walking in a dark tunnel without any directions. The darker the way I walk, the more valuable my friends are. This song is for the people who walk the same way I did. The protagonist tells his situation in a quiet manner.
‘만약 그렇다면’ If so
After the “1st track,” he looks back on the past days. Shaking hands with others, he forms new relationships for the future. Today is tough but he sings for better future. In the last part of the song, he seems weaker, compromising the ideal. “Hope this year will be better than the last year. If so, I will compromise my dream,” He says. He seems to feel complicated and conflicts between the reality and the dream.
The speaker said he’ll give up the dream, but he gradually changes in an opposite way. In this track, he says he is an ordinary man like any others. “My parents consider me as cacophonies, I’m sorry but why not go get it like a fanatic?” he firmly says and points out that the today’s hip-hop scene about which people are crazy is not the same with those of the good old days. I think that real hip-hop music lovers would know what I’m doing here.
This skit contains sounds extracted from a video work recorded by VC and me. Through this album, although I am in my early 30s, I wanted to communicate with the younger generation than mine that loves subcultures. “I don’t know what it becomes, this will be the cover art.” I told this to VC While I work out a plan for the next album, not this one, showing some drawings that I made to him.
The speaker suddenly changes the subject from dream and hip-hop to his girlfriend. This track illustrates a man whose attitude is like “tsun-tsun” that means cold/blunt/curt. He projects himself on his girlfriend in this song in order to illustrate a thing that he can’t help falling in love with. Technically saying, this one pretends talking about his girlfriend, but it talks about himself who only focuses on his dream. He is too naïve to give an attention the other things except for the dream. Sometimes he is not very sure that this naïve man is himself. The chorus sings that he is unstoppable because he has dreams. “Invisible curiosity that he can’t see even if he turns back,” in the verse 1 is aligned with the phrase, “I’ll tell you what’s waiting for us at the end of this road because we haven’t get there, we don’t know.”
*Weight is composed and arranged by me, and With Vintage is composed and arranged by VC. The names who wrote the songs are accidentally switched and it’s the same in the CD booklet. Fun mistake.
‘비 오는 날‘ Rainy day
This song is about memory while I was still working fulltime. I frequently worked outside of the office, and I didn’t have a car. One rainy day, I was late for a client meeting. I hated being late, and I couldn’t forgive myself. I spent a while under the eaves, regretting about the whole situation, and then suddenly I realized the scene was very beautiful. There will be the rainy days regardless of how hard I struggled. It is much better to think positively.
‘Run for real’
The speaker in this song doesn’t want to go back to the old days. He goes that it’s not necessary to say, “need more time,” or “I’ll compromise everything,” and repeatedly says all or nothing, there’s no halfway, and run farther.
‘두 손을 꽉 쥐고’ Hold Hands Tight
This track could be a self-talking to the speaker who finally chose to follow his dream or an advice to the ones who are still making a decision. Its main theme, although it is obvious, is ‘I don’t hear anything, and I will go for my passion,’ and ‘it’s hard, but I am doing well.’ I care about this song because its lyric resembles my own story. It was hard to decide which track is better for a lead single, and this was one of my favorites. “1st track” became the lead single in the end, but we’re happily working on a music video of this track.
This is the “good night” track. VC made a fabulous jazzy tune at the end of the album. As the track goes on, the BPM is getting faster even though its title is Good Night and in it, a singer constantly says “good night.” Is that a prequel of the next album or is that returning to the beginning?
- In OH, NZT-48 means a pill that the main character in the movie, Limitless, takes in order to make his dream come true.
- The running time of this album, 31 minutes, symbolizes the speaker’s age, 31 years old.
- The running time of the 9th track, 4:12, means the speaker’s birthday, 4/12.